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Monday, March 17, 2008

Three Years

17 March 2005

An anniversary in my life. A sad anniversary. I lost my Dad on that day. My precious, beloved, brave, amazing, exceptional, adored Dad.

It doesn't seem possible that a whole year has passed since I wrote this.

I still miss him today, as much as I have every day for the past three years. So much has happened in my life, so much he'd be proud of. I took care of my Mum as best I could after he left, especially right at the end. I hope that helped the grief he must have felt about leaving her on her own.

I believe he would have been overjoyed to know that I have finally found the right man to share my life with. He would have poured him a drink and clinked glasses with him, telling him that he was happy for us - I know, too, that he'd have added something along the lines of "You'd better bloody well look after her young man, or you'll have me to deal with."

Well Dad, not to worry, I know he will. He's strong and good and kind and handsome and loving. He'll make you proud. And we'll drink to you on our wedding day and wish you were there with us. But I know you'll be watching over me that day, as you have every day since you left. I still feel you here with me but I do miss you so very, very much.

I always will.


kimba said...

What a beautiful tribute. A great pic of a handsome bloke.. thanks for sharing it.

I see you so much in this photograph Fi. xx

Fusion said...

Yes Fiona, a great photograph of your dad. I can't believe it's been a year either, I remember that post. Wow.
It's nice to see you remembering him again this year.

anna said...

This post felt very near and dear to my heart because of my own recent loss.

When we were driving to the hospital that night, I cried because my father would never meet my children... and, unknown to me at that time, I was already pregnant. I wonder, if he would have held on longer if he knew that I was pregnant again. I wish I could have told him.

Chele said...

It does not seem that long. I beleive he would be so proud of you for all you have accomplished in this time past. I also think he would be very happy with your choice in life. I miss talking with you Fi..but I'm very happy that you are settling into life in a good way. Much love to you.

D said...

Fiona - he and your Mom are with you still all the time and will both be busy preparing for your new life with broad grins and happy hearts. He always knew you'd find someone that deserved you :-) Dx


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