When You're Just....Not Enough

I revisited my little blog recently and had a read through all the posts.  Some lengthy, some short.  Some happy, some sad.  Some questioning, some confirming. Lots about growing in love.

How quickly things can change, how easily things can become something else, altogether.  I'm not perfect, never have tried to pretend that I am.  But I have always done things from a point of being honest to myself and my loved ones.  Even my not-so-loved ones and that is perhaps why I am now not-so-loved by them.   Aaaaah honesty, how I wish you had been present more in others.

In life, you trust.  You trust your commitments, you trust those close to you, you trust your decisions.  Sometimes all those trusts are broken along with your heart.  When you're just.....not enough.

I'm constantly reviewing the past two years in my mind....what if I had, what if he had, what if we had.  But when someone constantly chooses another person, the same person, over you, it's time to realise that you're just....not enough.

Why wasn't I enough?  That's the part I don't understand.