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Friday, December 21, 2007

Christmas Approaches


Just after midnight tonight, I head eastwards towards Scotland to visit with my mother. It has been a tough couple of weeks, between working 15-18 hour days including over the weekend, an overwhelming tower of things to be done at the office, emotional calls with my mother, aunt, sister. I owe emails right, left and centre and I apologise for not having replied to so many. I just truly haven't had the time nor the energy to put thoughts together, nor fingers to keyboard. I'm sorry and am so thankful for the comments you have all left on my blog.

Little by little, things are coming out and the whole truth will be revealed during this trip. I have an appointment to meet with her doctor on Monday. I believe this will be the last Christmas I spend as a daughter and know I have to be strong for her while I'm there. I have been standing up for myself more with my mother lately, and not letting her get away with her usual bending of the truth when it comes to my behaviour. I told her that I have shown her nothing but respect through this entire time and that I expect nothing less than that from her. She did admit that I have been a powerful support to her.

After we each said our piece, she said something that made me cry: "We're still friends, aren't we?" I said, yes, always. I hope I'm more than just her friend but I'd settle for that, yes. I'd like that actually.

Wishing everyone a happy festive season. No matter where our faith lies, we can all celebrate this time of joining together and appreciating each other.

12 comments:

Sunshine said...

Bless you this christmas. It is wonderful to be able to call your Mother friend and her you! I hope you enjoy this time together. Make some precious memories.

Charmed said...

Fiona,
Remember that your mother needs you now more than ever. Don't worry about the small things. Try to let go of some of the past and just be there for her. She was there for you many times...it is time for you to return the favor.

Merry Christmas and safe travels.

anna said...

Oh Fiona, I cried when I read this. I don't know what to say. My thoughts are with you and I'm wishing you so much strength during this difficult time. Please lean on those who love you for support - you shouldn't always have to be the rock.

deb said...

Be strong Fiona and kind and compassionate, not just to your mother, but especially to yourself.

Sending you a hug. Take care sweetie.

D said...

Fiona if everyone in this world had a daughter like you then it would also mean that they had parents that were loving and caring in the next generation and the world would be a better place. I hope you garner some happy memories from your visit and that you leave these cold shores at peace. Take care D x

freebird said...

Well Fi, if you have a chance to read this...
I'll be thinking of you. If you have a moment where you'd like a little escape and if you still have my number, call me. I'm sure D would join me too if you'd like some company.
I hope your friends out here have helped just a little to give you strength.
(X)

S'mee said...

Thoughts will be with you Fi, at this difficult time.
IanS. X

George said...

Be well and enjoy your time with mother

Best wishes for a prosperous year of 2008

Miranda said...

My thoughts are with you and yours this Christmas. Savour every moment. ((((Big hugs)))

Be safe.

Gillette said...

Blessings to you, Fiona. I think of you.

The Last Spartan said...

Good luck. Merry Christmas. Happy 2008.

Matt K. said...

Happy and Merry. Make some memories.

 

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