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Tuesday, September 12, 2006

Who we were really meant to be...

What we live with we learn...
What we learn we practice....
What we practice we become...
And what we become has consequences...
And almost always, I have found...
Who we become, has little to do with
Who we were really meant to be.....

~ Author unknown ~


I know that I learned from what I lived with. I practised what I learned. I became who I needed to become. And I know that who I became had consequences. And that those consequences led me to become someone I didn't want to be, someone I never planned on being.

But in knowing this, it gives me a certain freedom. A freedom not to be bound by any of it, any longer. A freedom to be who I was really meant to be. To finally abandon this hairshirt, my heavy cloak of expected behaviour and live as the person I want to be. The person I've always wanted to be. Happy and fulfilled. Loved as well as loving. Appreciated as well as appreciating. Gifted as well as gifting.

Finally at peace with becoming who I was really meant to be. So why am I not that person yet?

10 comments:

Miranda said...

I think soon, day by day we become more and more what we'd like.

Zibi said...

Some deep thoughts there ...Oh BTW , Can't pack for the moliday .. no money dear... Sorry. Think of me while you having fun.

LePhare said...

You're still growing Fiona, as are we all. Ask most people and all they really want is to be happy...... and there's nothing wrong with that.

Fiona said...

Miranda, some days it feels as though there is an impassable chasm between being happy and what I'd like to be....and where I am now. And on other days, I could simply step across, but hesitate. But yes, I'm definitely the closest to it that I've ever been :)

Zibi, I'll send my jet or better yet, some of my airmiles!!

Lephare, is happiness a little like wealth? Can one ever know what really constitutes 'enough'?

Sunny Delight said...

A part of me thinks I haven't found that freedom yet to just be the me I want to be, instead of what others expect me to be....and then another part of me thinks, maybe even hopes that I never quite get there, because that is part of becoming who I am meant to be, which may never stop, I want to continue growing, learning, continue to be open to whatever comes my way...

Maybe being at peace with that, with knowing that we will always be changing, forging ahead into something new is enough for me.

Being at peace....now that sounds nice...and you know what darlin'? Even with all the deep soul searching you do....what I have learned of you so far...I do sense a glimmering center in your soul that is serene in who you are...your peace?

Fiona said...

I believe there is that in me Sunny....a satisfaction and realisation that I do have a sense of peace in my soul...but that there are some loose ends around me that I'd like to have tied up and squared away and just put in the places I want them

Because those things are like untied shoelaces...they trip you up at the damnedest of times!!

Steve said...

I feel like I could have written this myself, but you say it so very well, Fiona! :)

The answer? One soul needs another, in order to be the person you want to be!

chele said...

I do know this. You have became someone different since I have been knowing you! I think we all change little by little all the time. We change to suit our surroundings. You needed to be strong so you are! so on and so forth..I'm just happy to be knowing you for the very real genuine person that you are.

Fiona said...

Steve - we have a commonality of thought, it's very precious *S*

aaaah Chele, you really have seen me grow haven't you...and thank you for being there to help me along the way...you have given me strength when I needed it...and a kick up the ass when I needed that too!!

chele said...

I'm always up for a butt kicking ;) but I try to be ever so gentle!

You know you have been there for me too..when I had no one else..thats precious to me..always!

 

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